I am terrified by the feeling that you are now a stranger to me. Why  did I feel numb when I saw your reply in the email? You are the man whom I 've hooked on for 3 years. It's weird. Anyway, I am really thankful for the fleeting yet sweet moments we had together.

When I told you "you are the best I've ever had" 3 years ago, it's still true until now. At least, I really think you did ever love me. I still remember that you got down on your knees to wipe away my tears when I was crying, that you woke up early to cook breakfast for me.

It feels like a dream - a dream I wish I would never wake up from.

I hope you will remember me  on your every birthday - who will send you a blessing every year.

Wish you a happy new year 2008~~

I want to move on but I am struggling. Why can't things be easier and simpler?

Can I leave them all behind - 3 years of shadows?

It's so surreal. I want a grounded feeling. I don't like rollercoaster.

Hesitating.

A new page, finally.

3 years .....a dead end anyway. Would we fail to recognise each other if we met, one day ?  I wonder.

如果可以扔下全部的人和事, 到一個全新的地方展開一段新生活, 這有多好

因為我討厭現在及過去的自己, 只有到一個沒有人認識我的地方, 我才可以做一個我想做的自己

what if the human race lost the power of speech? would it be a quieter, better and more peaceful world?

even when you say something out, it doesn't help much but only worsen the problem.

 i wish i could have the guts to do something stupid, something mad.

a sense of belonging is hard to come by. this is something i 've never ever felt for 24 years in this freaking place.

i want to shut myself from the outside but i don't even have a room myself

i dont need anybody cos i will hate everybody.

the world is shattering, or it's never making sense.